Matrljani's Thoughts

I have become a White Nationalist

2009-05-12T07:55:00.000-07:00

I am a White Nationalist. I am a White Civil Rights Advocate.

This Blog and the previous one have been the belated record of my journey...

Some of my views have changed, some have stayed the same.

Basically, this blog is done. I have blossomed into what I really am, as Nietzsche puts it

BECOME WHAT YOU ARE.

If I have a new blog it will be unattached to this one...this is now relic floating in cyberspace. I will probably post a few more posts, explain but do not feel obligated to do so.

Star friendship

2008-05-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

-"The Gay Science", 279. Friedrich Nietzsche

Star friendship.— We were friends and have become estranged. But this was right, and we do not want to conceal and obscure it from ourselves as if we had reason to feel ashamed. We are two ships each of which has its goal and course; our paths may cross and we may celebrate a feast together, as we did—and then the good ships rested so quietly in one harbor and one sunshine that it may have looked as if they had reached their goal and as if they had one goal. But then the almighty force of our tasks drove us apart again into different seas and sunny zones, and perhaps we shall never see one another again,—perhaps we shall meet again but fail to recognize each other: our exposure to different seas and suns has changed us! That we have to become estranged is the law above us: by the same token we should also become more venerable for each other! And thus the memory of our former friendship should become more sacred! There is probably a tremendous but invisible stellar orbit in which our very different ways and goals may be included as small parts of this path,—let us rise up to this thought! But our life is too short and our power of vision too small for us to be more than friends in the sense of this sublime possibility.— Let us then believe in our star friendship even if we should be compelled to be earth enemies.

I am not your hero

2008-04-10T10:11:00.000-07:00

E.V.P. can make a person flypaper for demons, especially when they have current "issues". which I do

Astral Projection is useless if the individual has "issues" and ends up merely wandering around semi-real consensus realms of their own creation. That's currently me.

I am a former pothead and a current struggling alcoholic. wo is me, boo hoo...

I re-iterate my stance "get your own proof!"

In the recent months, I have re-appreciated the esoteric, the occult. As much as I crave for The Knowing, one must put things in perspective and look oneself in the mirror and not flinch from what they see. I see a soul beset by demons, beset by addictions. Filled to hatred to crisis point, a man on edge...

Therefore, I try to focus on the little things these days. Get my "Buddha" on...

My currently spiritually flabby ass would be useless in the paranormal arena at this point! Thank the Gods it is only 2008. Yes, I do believe in 2012 something will happen.

I am nobody's hero. I make noise, and much of it makes sense. But that noise and fury and activity must benefit me, foremost. Check your spiritual pulse, and ask yourself this - are you constantly turning to others to jump-start yours, to get it beating again?

What is this blog primarily? A message in a bottle among countless other millions online. I was here, I existed. I perceived elements of the truth of reality and strived to get somewhere with my newfound wisdom. The end to the saga of my struggle is yet to be written, but realise this - it is a profoundly selfish saga.

I was born a "bad seed". Daddy never diddled me, and high school didnt traumatize all that much! I am what I am. Savage. Frustrated. Mean. This mortal life right now in the 21st century is Hell for one such as myself, and I must admit that I do welcome Death, but not yet...not yet...

A reason to live for one such as myself? Paranormal Knowledge and Aptitude. Problem is, all I have to do is walk out my door in the morning and see "dawn of the dead" (ie. the public) and my enthusiasm plummets and I just crave for out. But out right now would have many unwanted terms and conditions connected, which I am unwilling to accept, and their consequences I am unwilling to volitionally undergo.

Do you want a reason to live? are you beset by demons? well guess what, if you died right now those demons will be waiting for you on the other side, and you may not be strong enough to fend them off. This is my own rationale...

I am not your hero. I am beset by demons, and every day is the worst day of my life. I am bitter and twisted and long for Nuclear Annihilation of much of this shitty planet! Come, Great Depression, Come, Ecological Melt-Down. Oh Nature, destroy this stagnation, this house of cards built on sand that society calls "progress"...

I am scarcely my own hero, I am a bad seed and dread to consider who or what I may have been in a previous life. I got issues, leave me be. I need to crawl into my Hermit's hole and pray to the Divine and hope my suffering can be assuaged...

Be Your Own Hero

Fuck you, Zionists

2008-01-21T15:17:00.000-08:00

I see through the bullshit. Your dissembling over how any criticism is racially motivated is old and tired, tepid and useless. Truth and Reason shall bulldoze your shit. It has, continues to and My God just wait to see what the future holds.

We KNOW that you, yes YOU - they, THEM - you fuckers control our Mass Media, influence American Foreign Policy and have escalated our emnity with the Muslims, therefore forcing into a civilizational war perhaps a few decades too early, oh yeah and also we die in our drives so that the fake nation-state of Israel can continue to survive.

What more is there to say, really? Fuck You. Deeply, from the bottom of my heart

from the Gospel of Philip

2007-11-22T05:52:00.000-08:00

It is not possible for anyone to see anything of the things that actually exist unless he becomes like them. This is not the way with man in the world: he sees the sun without being a sun; and he sees the heaven and the earth and all other things, but he is not these things. This is quite in keeping with the truth. But you saw something of that place, and you became those things. You saw the Spirit, you became spirit. You saw Christ, you became Christ. You saw the Father, you shall become Father. So in this place you see everything and do not see yourself, but in that place you do see yourself - and what you see you shall become.

Archonic Gnosticism

2007-11-20T15:18:00.000-08:00

Gnostic paths are always imperfect. One of the major wrong turns in Gnosticism's history has been a love-affair with the Buddhistic concept of surrender of body and even individual self. Nirvana and reunion in the Pleroma are synonymous, interchangeable. Both are wrong turns.

I argue that one can become so enlightened that they rationally decide to halt their so-called "spiritual progress" toward reunion with some esoteric Ground of All Being. Instinctually, the more refined intellect is repelled by this conception of dissolution of self and the baring of one's soul before all of Existence.

To my mind, Nirvanic/Pleromatic reunion is highly overrated, like family reunions. Where we come from needn't necessarily be better than from where we have ended up. On the contrary, there is so much charm to being in these demiurgically weaved bodies and our consciousnesses being filtered through these homonid brains that it would be insanity to throw it all away! I wouldn't even hazard "reunion" for one micro-second, lest it tear me asunder from my Ape-suit for eternity!

Admittedly, it is a matter of taste - but I argue that given enough time, most souls would be well-adjusted enough to prefer to be in the afterlife with this Ape body, that they would prefer that this accursed "rip" in the tide that drags us toward self-dissolution would melt away and leave us to our own devices. Why do you assume this pull is either irresistable or a good thing? The reasoning mind can see it is rather a trade-up, and if there is no refund and you aren't even allowed to know if you will get one (a refund) until after the fact - see where this is going?

It is far wiser to remain Archonic, so to speak. Archonic, yes, but with one's eyes open. Enlightened Archonism.

Sublime Hatred in Gnosticism

2007-11-20T14:40:00.000-08:00

Let us not mince words - Gnosticism is foremost a religion of hatred, a rebellion of the noblest instincts of humankind (biological, mental and spiritual/paranormal) against the obscenity of Judaism, Judeo-Christianity and Islam.

Gnosticism as a "Hate" spirituality - strange words, you say? I am hardy denying that most Gnostic texts speak of profound Love as one of the most important, if not the most important of the "guiding lights" in ancient Gnosticisms. However - I agrue that intrinsically wedded to this Love is a profound Hatred.

Love and Beauty are revered as Ideals in Platonic thought, and the goal of the spiritual aspirant is to largely shun ephemeral beauty, appreciating the divine beauty that is reflected in the imperfect things of our mortal Kosmos. Well then, why not divining with one's intellect that which is reprehensible in all ephermal things, and tracing them back to concepts, "ideas" transcendant from our own particular kosmos of chaos?

Hatred in Gnosticism is implicit, rather than explicit, of course. I argue that the ancient Gnostics were unaware how lovingly and passionately they hated! Try as they might, I see them for who and what they were and mourn the loss of what they might have been, if their intellectual honesty had been more consistent. Ah, but such is the constant shortcomings of people and "isms".

Gnosticism is supposed to be about war! A passionate struggle to the death against ingnorance, lies, weakness and oppression. Taken this way, Gnosticism (despite its psychedelic mythology) can be seen as a healthier, saner spiritual path to Buddhism etc. Note I say spiritual, not religious. Gnostic texts are to be drawn on for spiritual nourishment, not venerated as the texts of your "religion"! Especially in the 21st century, to label Gnosticism as one's actual religion is very, very stupid.

Gnosticism is Anarchic, Shamanistic. The diverse Gnostic Mythos are a combination of guilless psychonautic adventures, but also a refined form of spiritual rebellion. The looming authoritarian behemoth of Rome could not hold a candle to Judaism's vileness, which is why Gnosticism focusses exclusively on Judaism. Of course, hypothetically given more time (extra centuries to spread their wings) one can easily imagine Gnostic polemical texts (philosophical and mythological) branching out to slander similar religions, concepts and systems of control (lesser evils to Judaism, but evils nonetheless). Yes, even the Roman Empire itself.

The Zionist Archons

2007-10-11T19:52:00.001-07:00

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The Zionist Archons are holding the keys to Gnosis and they dare only peak thru the doorways because their petty minds can only absorb so much of the Light and Love.

The Zionist Archons try to block our way, but those who seek shall find, as a wise man (Jesus) once said. They cannot stop us knocking at the door, and it will open, and we can and have and shall walk thru, as these parasites cower...

Europe is Dying

2007-10-10T04:57:00.001-07:00

Notebook 5[89]summer1886-autumn1887

2007-10-10T04:37:00.000-07:00

Against the great error of thinking that our era (Europe) represents the highest human type. Instead: the men of the Renaissance were higher, as were the Greeks; infact, perhaps we are at a rather low level: 'understanding' is not a sign of highest force but of thorough fatigue, moralisation itself is a 'decadence'.

-Nietzsche

(quoted in entirety from Writings From the Late Notebooks, Cambridge, 2003. Translated by Kate Sturge. Such unpublished texts were previously only easily publicly available in the posthumous collation of notes published as 'The Will to Power’)

When it rains it pours...

2007-10-09T21:05:00.000-07:00

My thoughts on the image shown below

2007-09-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

Bwahahahahahah!
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Yes! Yes!!

Now, one may ask - what the Fuck?!

Realise something about Northern Europe's History just prior to the time of this depiction of Christ - The Vikings had streamed over in their waves, bringing their plants with them. Modern Academia are basically in consensus on the idea that the Viking "Beserker" warriors, for instance, were taking mushrooms. They would "see the Gods", ie. Wotan/Odin, Thor etc and would have been therefore utterly fearless in battle, eager and ready to go to Viking Heaven!

The Vikings oftentimes enough settled in the areas they conquered, and similar to the Mongols would oftentimes enough become "integrated" into their host cultures. Mongols became "Chinese" etc, and Vikings became "Christian". Blessed Scandinavians, they brought their magic mushies with them!

I mean, Look At This Picture! Isn't it just one of the most hilarious things you have Ever seen? Medieval Europe, and Jesus shown as saying "Psychedelic Mushrooms are Good" indeed "They are like Angelic Intermediaries" (I mean, come on - Four Angels, Four Mushrooms)

And to top it off, the Mushrooms are portrayed in a form that is unambiguously Anthropomorphic, and this perfectly is in line with what countless peoples have said about mushies and other entheogens, describing them as "beings". Now, whether you think this is silly or whatever, who cares? Point is, what a Hilarious depiction of Jesus!

Jesus depicted as Lord of Magical Plants. The Canterbury Psalter, c. 1147 CE.

Jesus as Lord of Magical Plants, 12th C. AD

2007-09-23T20:27:00.000-07:00

Jesus depicted as lord of Magical Plants. The Canterbury Psalter, c. 1147 CE.

people not to spiritually curse

2007-09-22T23:28:00.001-07:00

I know a horrible old man who treats a beloved elder female family member of mine like garbage. Now, I don't believe in the archaic concept of Karma as a metaphysical force in the Kosmos, although I do take some pleasure in the my belief that this old bastard will suffer in the afterlife in some way regardless (earthbound spirit, grumbling about things etc)

I believe you can Bless and Curse people, through your own power and through the power of those forces that resonate with you and concur and aide you in your focussing of Blessedness or Cursedness upon the individual/s in question.

The problem is, some people are best left alone. For instance, there is an extremely Ignoble type of individual who scarcely deserves the title of "human", who will take advantage of all blessings in their life upon others (inflict their power rather than share their abundance) and will also take out upon others their misfortunes (especially their sexual partners).

The Evil Man I speak of is such an individual. Were he to be Cursed, he would treat my beloved female elder worser. Were he to be Blessed, he would yet still treat her worser.

Geez, when this Geezer dies I am going to throw a One-Man party!

Point is, he is not in my prayers, my prayers for positive bestowal or negative. He gets nothing. But I Bless his partner, my family elder who he so maligns. Get the picture?

Be careful who you try to Curse...

The Key to Good Friendship

2007-09-16T03:22:00.001-07:00

Each of us has a basket of apples, and some of them are sour, ripe and rotten. It has taken me till 25 to realize that I was hanging out with people who's baskets are overfull of the sour and rotten. Ah, the true friend is one who has lots of ripe apples in their basket!

This is assuming, of course, that you are not sour and rotten to the brimful yourself, in which case enjoy your company with fellow sour&rottens! But I am mainly to the brimful with ripe (this is an intuitive thing, that goes beyond rational reasoning).

When you say Equals, you do not mean the same. It is an intuitive math that transcends normal modes of rational thought, that sums up an individual. Different, but equal, on par. Equally full of excellence, dynamism and optimism.

No more baskets to the brimful of sour and rotten apples for me

Nietzsche on fighting with Monsters

2007-09-14T11:20:00.000-07:00

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He who fights with monsters should look to it that he himself does not become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you

(Beyond Good and Evil, 146)

Islam - the Eternal Enemy

2007-09-11T11:41:00.001-07:00

You can be friends with a Muslim, but you can never be friends with Islam.

If don't know what I'm talking about, poor you. You need some serious "catch up" I'm ahead of you. Follow, if you will. If you don't, fine. That's your path, the path of blissful ignorance.

Any Muslim familiar with their holy texts knows that their God, Allah, commands them to CONQUER THE PLANET.

Now, Christianity has done countless atrocities for over 1500 years and continues to do them to this day through the brain-rape of children (into becoming brainwashed carriers of the meme, the disease that is Christianity)...but the devil is in the details...Christians are commanded by their God, Yahweh/Jehovah/Christ to spread the Gospel to the ends of the Earth, and in the process annoy the shit out of a lot of people. But that's all they are required to do...

I shall continue to digress on Christianity in order to accentuate the fundamental difference between these two religions/memes/diseases. Christians, Christianity - in the modern era...is no longer expansionary. They are still virile and powerful in some places on this Earth. yes, but Christendom as a whole has settled into a graceful old age, they see the End Times are near (perhaps they are! but not in the way they think ;) ) Christendom continues to annoy us with their missionaries and what-have-you, but they are now mainly looking to just hold onto what they have, as are we, the Post-Christians...

ISLAM. Their religion divides the planet into two Houses. The House of Peace (Islam, Submission) and the House of War (War against Allah).

They are commanded by their God, every last one of them, to expand, push always expand...to destroy, conquer politically the House of War, until it ceases to exist. Very ruthless logic. Now, there are two jihads.

There is the Violent Jihad, and the Silent Jihad (Demographic Jihad...outbreeding westerners in their own countries, where they have declining birthrate, ageing populations typically, post-christian nation-states/societies, cultures)

The United States, infact, is lucky. They only get bombed. Short of liberal useage of Weapons of Mass Destruction, the Muslims have no hope of outbreeding the Americans in their own country. Alas, much of The West is not so lucky. Dutchistan, Frankistan, Londonistan, Australiastan...

Now, most Muslim immigrants mean you no harm (they are sheep) they do not actively wage war (hot or cold). But amongst these people are Dark Shepherds who know exactly what they are doing...

To conclude (for now, I have much more to say and really these aren't my original ideas...Islam, the Eternal Enemy, it's Academic) I am going to paste a bunch of links, and if I find more I shall paste more in further posts.

Oh, by the way! I only just remembered to mention this! Did you know Muslims are allowed to lie to Non-Muslims? They can tell you massive lies if their conscience dictates to them that it serves the Greater Cause of Islam. Ponder that!

http://jihadwatch.org/

http://jihadwatch.org/dhimmiwatch/

http://thereligionofpeace.com/

http://westernresistance.com/

Notebook 7 [39], end of 1886-spring 1887

2007-09-09T15:29:00.000-07:00

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A full and powerful soul can not only cope with painful, even terrible losses, privations, dispossessions and disdain: from such hells it emerges fuller and more powerful and – the crucial thing – with a new growth in the blissfulness of love. I believe that the man who has sensed something of the deepest conditions of every growth in love will understand Dante when he wrote over the gates of his Inferno: ‘I too was created by eternal love’.

-Nietzsche

(quoted in entirety from Writings From the Late Notebooks, Cambridge, 2003. Translated by Kate Sturge. Such unpublished texts were previously only easily publicly available in the posthumous collation of notes published as 'The Will to Power’)

Why Schizophrenia Survived - a theory

2007-09-09T14:21:00.000-07:00

Christians say "God is no respecter of persons".

The same goes for Evolution. What is Powerful is just that, Powerful - doesn't matter if it's to the detriment of the individual, the only deciding factor is whether that suffering individual propagates their genes, spawns progeny.

I know a Schizophrenic. No, it's not me. It's someone very near and dear to me. And therefore I have pondered on this affliction. Briefly, to digress, let me describe to you ignoramouses who need to play catch-up what Schizophrenia entails...

You know the ludicrousness of your dreams when you are asleep and for some reason they make sense at the time? That's what it's like for these people in their waking life, either constantly or when their break from reality reaches a peak, an episode.

Also, they typically suffer from acute paranoia that people or "stuff", (whatever) is out to get them. They see things that aren't there, hear things that aren't there. They read the newspaper and 'read between the lines' and believe they see 'patterns'.

Another brief digression - the person I know and love has been sane for over 12 years. They started taking medication that specifically treats the affliction and they are fine, cured. They're one of the lucky ones, others are still crazy even with high doses of meds!

NOW - I have a theory why Schizophrenia has survived, indeed, how Natural Selection has favoured it through certain Epochs of human history.

In Ancient Greece, the Oracle of Delphi and other such Oracles were consulted. These were typically women (such as at Delphi) and they were almost always on drugs. A person on drugs ranting stuff was considered a link with the Other Realm.

The same goes for the Shaman. Drugs, visions. Now, hang on for a minute - I by no means rule out the possibility that certain drugs can indeed induce a connection with the Paranormal Aspect of Existence, indeed for me to claim otherwise would be to have the evidence stacked up against me.

A tired cliche, but one worth mentioning is the Book of Revelation in the New Testament. Drugs, or Insanity, or both! Hindu Gods? Gnosticism? Drugs, Insanity and other stuff all mixed in with a twist. Are you following me?

Drugs Digression Over. Back to Schizophrenia. Evolution is no respecter of persons. What survives survives. I advance the theory that in certain parts of the world, during certain historical periods, madness was not always an impediment, rather it could be the key to advancement, indeed to the uppermost echelons of Power!

The Shaman is an obvious example. Perceived as a Direct Conduit to the Gods, or God.

Now imagine a Tribal Leader with Schizophrenia. Especially Paranoid Schizophrenia...

Sure, some of them would be far too out of control to be effective leaders, but others would be exceptional, indeed charismatic and they would be seen as a sort of fusion of Shaman and Chief.

A Tribal Leader with Paranoid Schizophrenia would perceive enemies to abound wherever they look, indeed many of them would become like Josef Stalin, and ruthlessly not only destroy and conquer, predate upon their neighbouring tribes, but they would do purges of their own people. And once again, some would overstep the mark and perhaps be assassinated, what have you, but others would be revered as visionary

Now imagine a Tribal Leader with Schizophrenia in a culture that has Polygamy. Hah! Bwahahahahah! Case Closed! The Mystery is Solved!

Schizophrenia has survived (and it is genetic, thats Science) because even though in our modern age it is a serious impediment, in previous eras it was seen as a mark of favour, a calling. Evolution is no respecter of individuals...

The Hammer Speaks

2007-09-08T17:20:00.000-07:00

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The Hammer Speaks

'Why so hard?' The charcoal once said to the diamond; 'for are we not close relations?'
Why so soft, O my brothers, thus I ask you: for are you not - my brothers?
Why so soft, unresisting and yielding? Why is there so much denial and abnegation in your hearts, so little fate in your glances?
And if you will not be fates, if you will not be inexorable: how can you conquer with me?
And if your hardness with not flash and cut and cut to pieces: how can you one day - create with me?
For all creators are hard, and it must seem bliss to you to press your hand upon millenia as upon wax,
bliss to write upon millenia as upon metal - harder than metal, nobler than metal. Only the noblest is perfectly hard.
This new law-table do I put over you, my brothers: Become hard!

Nietzsche, The finale to Twilight of the Idols, 1888

Nietzsche on the Will to Power

2007-09-08T17:13:00.000-07:00

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What is good? - All that heightens the feeling of power, the will to power, power itself in man. What is bad? - All that proceeds from weakness. What is happiness? - The feeling that power increases, that a resistance is overcome.

(The Anti-Christ, 2) 1888

Neo-Nietzschean forms of Spirituality

2007-09-08T15:54:00.000-07:00

I hesitate to give a definition for two things - what exactly a Neo-Nietzschean is, or indeed what Neo-Nietzscheans who also embrace spiritual beliefs (or indeed Knowings) are. All I can say is I am a living example of just that.

People seem to fuse at the hip spirituality with being 'nice'. Well, I'm nice I suppose but I'm also not-nice! I am an Ape, and Overman (Ubermensch), dare I say?

Nietzsche, the Towering Genius. Those who have only ever had a cursory reading of who Nietzsche was, what his main philosophy was (ie. haven't actually read any of his books, many of which are veritable Tomes) just don't get it.

Those who have read Nietzsche's books in the wrong order (starting out with the wrong book/s first...this is a problem endemic to understanding his Greatness), they just don't get it either.

Nietzsche was a Master Psychologist. Before the field of Psychology existed. In a Fight with Freud, he would destroy Freud in a matter of seconds. In a Fight with Carl Jung he would be narrowly defeated by Jung, in my opinion, but that's only because Jung had spirituality on his side... (no fair!)

and Here is where me and dear Fritz part ways - sorry man, but you were wrong. There is a Paranormal Aspect to existence.

But hey, no need to throw the baby out with the bathwater, by no means! Hell, no!

Now, others will give you a different list of the Order to read Nietzsche's most important works in, but who cares. Here's My List (writes you a prescription like a Herr Doktor) *scribbles*

1878 Human, All to Human (The COMPLETE Version, not just the Penguin Paperback. That only has part one. there's two extra parts, Assorted Opinions and Maxims, and The Wanderer and his Shadow

1881 Daybreak (also translated The Dawn)

1883 The Gay Science (it means 'The Joyful Wisdom, silly. it was the 19th century)

NOW

read these three - not necessarily in their entireties or even in order (either individually from front-to-back, or the three books as a whole...this is whats great about Nietzsche you can dip in and out, but be careful not to forget what you have and haven't read)

and also read these three in tandem with

1886 Beyond Good and Evil

1888 Twilight of the Idols

There you go, that's my prescription, and one last piece of advice. His most fun writings are the ones where it's a short aphorism of one single sentence, or maybe two, three or four. They are like Diamonds

All Hail Nietzsche

LSD Legalisation! How? I'll tell ya

2007-09-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

Strict terms and conditions would have to apply.

I came up with this idea about oh six months back its an absolute scream. Part joke, part serious.

They could dole out prescriptions to the populace where you get only, say, 3 trips a year etc and its a prescription from your Doc and then you take it to these big enclosures, these huge nature reserves etc that are as large as golf courses but it's mega-tight security...now I realise this is sounding all a bit Orwellian but bare with me (snickers) ...

So you take your prescription to your local "LSD Land" (Like Disney Land) and once you're in, you're IN, Locked In until you're no longer tripping. Now, there will be a certain percentage of the population who will bug out entirely when this occurs and thats when the Benevolent folks in white coats will have to shoot them with tranquilizer darts etc

But the rest of us, over time it would become normal, this kinda way of doing Acid. We'd accept that it's a necessary evil so that society doesn't descend into utter madness!

Think about it ;)

Those I resonate with

2007-09-07T05:03:00.000-07:00

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I Resonate with the Warriors. I see no contradiction in the statement that I make which is that Humanity at it's highest evolutionary level, spiritually, shall adopt to volitionally become extinct but hey thats centuries or millenia away so lets smite the Borg, the Drones while we're here. War (whether Cold or Hot)! Battle Planet!

humbly at The Peak chipping away

2007-09-07T02:31:00.000-07:00

Humbly at the peak chipping away...

I am a little clever person ‘standing on the shoulders of giants’ as the saying goes. Towering Intellects, and the Giant of Science. A veritable mountain, a timeline which I humbly but determinedly traverse, map, have traversed, have mapped…

I have traversed from the basecamp to it’s height…and as is the case with climbing real mountains, there are myriad dangers.

Others climb nimbly as Sherpas from basecamp to the very peak - but have they comprehended the mountain, and did they linger at it’s peak?

Others yet sit happily at basecamp, and sing the songs of dead heroes (but most of these bards aren’t quite so happy…)

I, however, am a systematic and ruthless Extractor of precious metals. For is not a Mountain comprised of many elements, some as fleeting as ice and snow – blown away as the seasons change, and poor fools with them?

I sometimes visit basecamp and the lower levels just above it for respite and pure entertainment, and also as salutations for the Worthiest of the Ancients.

And I do believe they watch us, indeed I believe we, you, I, Us – We can all come to Know that they watch us – This is what is to be found at The Peak.

The Peak of the Mountain of Heroes, Geniuses and Science reaches up into the Glorious Aether. Akasha.

Besides those who are lucky or chosen (mediums, etc), only those with Absolute Allegiance to Science, it’s Ideal, it’s Abstract Concept – only they will come to the Nether Regions between Belief and Knowing.. and have the opportunity to cross the threshhold into The Knowing. The Indestructible Knowing that not only smiles at the Grim Reaper/Yama but Laughs with the Laughter of Gods.

The Knowers are among us. I want to join them. Don’t you? Mediums, former Remote Viewing agents from the Cold War, Scientists in Laboratories, myriads of MDs who have witnessed enough freaky stuff to Know – to be Indestructible (or rather, to finally comprehend one’s indestructibility)

I humbly now stand at The Peak, chipping away with my scientific pickaxe, to find The Knowing for myself, me. Find The Knowing for yourself, fellow sufferer, and crush all doubt into dust.

At this time right now in 2007, yes, many of us will fail and drop off the mortal tree having only Believed the findings of Science. For some, that is enough. I want more, More! All of it!

Do not despair my fellow believers, my fellow sub-knowers. The Scientists (that is, the True Scientists, unlike the archaic fools who scarcely deserve the title) have been at work with their Mighty Machinery – The Mountain is Exploring Itself with Formidable Machinery!

The Scientists in their thousands worldwide are at the peak with us and the conclusion is always the same, rising up in a wave, a crescendo – it’s real, it’s real, Afterlife is Real. IT’S REAL! ITS REAL! CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSCENDS THE MORTAL FRAME!

The Findings, Papers and Published Books of Utter Academic Integrity continue to rain on us as Sweet Manna.

But Alas, we are only human, are we not? Some of us (such as myself) want Personal Proof.
Why should those such as myself sit by and die waiting for Science (and it’s Truest Disciples) to finally distill Proof into doses sufficient for the Consumption of the Masses? When’s it going to hit the front page? Tommorrow? Next Year? 2030?!

Us humble amateurs, us little selfish ones, let us watch what Science finds (and has indeed already found) , and let us do our own little forays as well…

Dare I say, try to leave your body (and return) flying through the Aether for one’s self, or try to record ghosts on audio?

If you need it, if you hunger it as I do, if you are at the Mountain’s peak as I am, if you read and consume all the Manna of Scientific findings yet still do not feel Indestructible – GET YOUR OWN PROOF!

Reasons to stick around in mortal form, even after (hypothetically) attaining 100% Knowing of Immortality

2007-08-12T12:13:00.000-07:00

(this is from my older main blog)

in no particular order...

Sex (don't assume it's as good or the same in the afterlife)

Food (don't assume it's as good in the afterlife)

Drugs (don't assume it's as good in the afterlife)

Good Books (don't assume it's the same as reading down here)

Good TV shows and Movies (Need I say more?)

Good Computer Games (Do you really think you'll be able to play them in the afterlife?)

Humour (There is much laughter to be had down here)

Fighting the Matrix (In all the small ways and the large, in all the direct ways and the more oblique)

Drive to Self-Perfection (The Second Salvation, Knowing of Afterlife being the First)

Anthropological/Sociological interest (to Watch - Watch them, Watch them all!)

Helping Loved Ones (Gently guiding them to more (After) Life Affirming thinking)

Inspirational passage from the gnostic Gospel of Truth (Alan Jacobs translation)

2007-08-12T10:33:00.000-07:00

From daylight above
which knows no night,
and from that sun which never
sets because it is flawless.

Utter from the heart
"I am the perfect day!
And in me dwells that light
which never sets."

Ouroboros (snake eating it's tail) as negative

2007-08-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

Ouroboros - this ancient symbol (going all the way back to ancient Egypt) has down the ages been considered variously as positive and negative. In modern times, Carl Jung considered it as a positive symbol. I consider it negative.

Ouroboros is the entire predator/prey parasitic and almost entirely blinded system of the parts of the Kosmos condensed to a slower vibration...

There is some bad news...there is no truly ever escaping Ouroboros. In a previous post I said otherwise, but there are different kinds of escape. we will never Ultimately escape it even in Death/Transition. There can only be constant self-overcoming (In this mortal realm and the Other Place) and will to perfection towards an impossible-to-reach Ideal, just as Law is the shadow of Justice.

There can only be the Eternal War within yourself, against the various parts of yourself. The Amoeba part of you, the Reptile and the Ape (To speak nothing of the Subconscious!). As the often depressing band Mudvayne put it "internal primates forever"

We're like Russian Dolls. One inside the other inside the other. One outside the other outside the other...

Whether you believe in multiple incarnations or that we only have one mortal life - even one has already tainted you! You and I, fellow sufferers (homo sapiens) are eternally stuck with the Ape, for better or worse.

from the Corpus Hermeticum VII (Alan Jacobs Translation)

2007-08-06T05:09:00.000-07:00

CORPUS HERMETICUM VII

Dear fellows, where are you rushing to like drunkards, tipsy and staggering on the rich wine of reason, forgetful of God?

You cannot stomach it; already you're about to vomit!

Halt! Sober up!

Elevate yourself by mental power. Maybe not all of you can do that, but some of you can!

For the degeneration that flows from forgetfulness is drowning the earth, infecting soul and body, veiling the soul like a cloak and stopping you from abiding in the heart.

So don't be swept away by this mad flood!

Find the way into your heart. Look for a good teacher to show you the path to the gates of rememberance. Where there's a Light, radiant and bright, free from darkness.

Where nobody is drunk, but keeps their mental eye on that Great Being who wills to be known in their heart.

That Great Being cannot be seen or heard, or spoken or thought about, only by a higher subtle intellect that transcends normal matters of the mind.

But first strip off the soiled cloak you wear,
the foul mantle of forgetfulness,
the base of wickedness,
the link with evil, the black pit,
the spiritual death,
the walking corpse,
the moving coffin,
the domestic rogue who
feeds on guile, which he relishes,
and conspires to cause your downfall.

Such is the habit; the filthy coat you've put on, that is your foe! It suffocates you and drags you down to it's cruel self, into the gutter.

Otherwise, through aspiration and seeing the beauty of Truth and the Good that dwells in you, you will come to despise this vile enemy who plots to destroy you.

It ruins the mind and pollutes the senses by muddying them with gross materialism, filling them with disgusting lust for inane pleasure, to prevent you from understanding what you should understand!

And, what is worse, it will stop you from seeing forever what you should really see!